Early pregnancy can really cause a normally ‘sane’ person to go a little crazy. Sean might dispute the sane part sometimes.
At this point I am just shy of 7 weeks to be exact I am 6 weeks 6 days pregnant. It isn’t until pregnancy do you start counting everything by the day. I find myself counting down to the start of my new week. Each week gets me closer to actually feeling pregnant.
Back to the comment about me going a little crazy…I have become convinced that I have imagined this whole thing. There is really no reason to believe that I am not pregnant, but to be honest why can’t I feel a little sick, or have sore boobs or look pregnant. Sean assured me last night that I don’t really want to be sick, which is true but I would really love to feel pregnant.
I feel like early pregnancy is a very hard time since you don’t look pregnant and for those of us ‘lucky’ ones don’t feel pregnant. You have to sit here and wait for someone whether it is a doctor or a midwife to tell you that you are not crazy and that there is in fact a baby growing inside of you. Until that point you are left to your own imagination and the internet. I can see why some doctors recommend you stay away from the internet in early pregnancy it can also contribute to making you a crazy person.
Next step is going to be finding a midwife for this pregnancy so hopefully in the next few weeks we can decide on a hospital and midwife for Carlos’ arrival in October which seems like a lifetime from now.